The events of the past inform those of the present and the future is a consequence of both. Perspective is the salve that lessens the pain and strengthens the healing. I have learned that I am a product not only of the joys I have experienced but also of the pain and without one, I would not understand the other. We will never comprehend true joy if we do not experience the depths of suffering and we will never learn from the suffering if we do not believe that joy comes in the morning. I believe that the Lord’s hand moves people and events in and out of our lives in order to perfect his will in us. If I believe that the Lord’s hand moves me from beginning to end, and I do, then who am I to question the tool that is in his hand. You can’t blame the hammer for pounding the nail. I could scream to high heaven about the wrongs that have been done to me and demand recompense, and there have been times that I have done just that. It has gotten me nowhere. Each and every event in my life has been a crossroad and I have been given the choice: stay on this road that I know the Lord has placed me on or turn off and seek my own will. It has been an easy choice to press on through the good times but not so easy to willingly walk into the deep, dark places. The only thing that has enabled me to choose the struggle is the belief that he is in the joy as well as the pain…and wherever he is, is where I want and need to be.
Tomorrow I begin a new part of my life and my walk. I’m stepping into some unknown territory – into a new job with new people to meet and new experiences. I would be lying if I did not say that I have a certain amount of fear and insecurity, but outweighing all of that is an excitement that I have not felt in quite some time. Almost like I’ve been on a detour around a huge construction project and am finally merging back into the flow of traffic. My eyes are wide open looking for oncoming travelers and scanning the horizon for new signs and directions. I’m sure there will be some bumps in the road ahead but I have no doubt that the Lord is leading…his hands are all over it!